I've been thinking about my good friend Than for a while. I realized if Spencer hadn't memorized me and made me attracted to him (platonicly---of course), I would be Than. I would've had a lovely boyfriend. I would've dropped V for him a heart beat, I would've given up girls for him, I would've gone Mormon for him.

Thats a lot for him. Just for him. A guy---and not a girl.

Sure, I'll lay on the floor and listen to 'Octivarium' and I'll fall asleep to the soothing familiar music. I play 'Scenes from a Memory' and I will instantly think of him and of the marching band and the show we were making 'Scenes from Marshwood' and the word 'epic'. I listen to Ayreon '01011001' and I remember the time I was on the phone with him and talking about music. Than has so much energy and so much fun to hang around with. I loved singing with him at the lunch table, I loved sharing lunch with him. He was such a sweetie (and a cutie, too!).

I miss him. :(

I'm a grumpy-pants at the moment. I'm tired and I wanna take a nap, I'm mad at my camera and my computer, I just wanna listen to music and forget everything and follow the dream of all the concept albums I have in my database. Ai, and wouldn't it be such a nice trip? Yes, I would enjoy it so much.

Sorry for my last journal entry. I haven't talked to anybody and my emotions...just over flowed. A lot better now.

So...I'm playing Resident Evil 4 on my Wii. FAIL. I scream "JESUS" really loud (David and Kathy can hear my outside my room) whenever a villager spots me. What the fuck am i going to do when I see a ZOMBIE?!? Piss my pants like the little girl I am.

Well, I bought an energy drink for tonight, so I won't go to bed and so I can play Resident Evil 4 all NIGHT FUCKING LONG!!! AHHHH!! So excited!! But, not for the energy drink part. Blah.

I remember when Spencer was doing a project for Foods class. He was going to invite me over to drink TWO Monsters and then take my blood pressure. Dumb ass. Good thing he needed to do it over three days, and the kid across the street (who he hates, BTW) was there. >___> I have such a low caffine tolerence. About half a can would've made me sick to my stomache. Hell, a sip of Sobe's NO FEAR makes me dizzy. Can you imagine me on MONSTER? Hell no. I would've either A) Got sick after a can, B) Gotten hyper and not be able to sit down...or even get close to still, C) Completely crash and pass out after the 2nd can, or D) Mosty gotten very aggiated and pissy and I wouldn't have been talkable...or even seenable for I would've ripped your head out. Most likely A, C and D

...Yep. Good thing I don't use energy drinks. Yuck. BACK TO FINISHIN' NO FEAR AND THEN TO RESIDENT EVIL 4 :O

I love that song. From the Hairspray 2007 soundtrack. :D. I've been singing along with Queen (Motormouth), and AHHHH!! My voice!! I don't know how many times I've done this to myself, or how many times I told myself: "YOU ARE A HIGH SOPRANO. YOU CANNOT SING ALTO FOR YOU DESTROY YOUR VOCAL CORDS WHEN YOU DO. ASDFGHJKL."

:D I give myself a head ache when I sing that low (Nothing comes out of my throat after a low F or D), my throat swells, and it closes! YES! PAIN! But if my high school ever did this as a play, I would MURDER to either be Tracy or Motormouth. But I'm white D:. Stupid white skin. I WANT TO BE A BLACK WOMEN D<...Well, for the play anyway. It would be so cool! Also, I like her lyrics to "You Can't Stop The Beat" the best. Tracy/Link's are okay, but...I prefer Queen's part.

:> I've been trying to entertain myself by singing songs all day. I've recorded "Koi no Mikuru Densetsu" in English, aaaaand...I've sung 'YCStB' a few times today. But I won't record it, it's too low. D:. Damn octive range. DAMN YOU TO HELL!

If it wasn't for Haruhi, I would be working myself to death and exhaustion. I love you Haruhi <333!!!

Anywho! Me and her have been on the phone for the longest time, looking up music for marching band. I was going on about how I would get a job and buy the music, and buy the drill if I have to, and make the drill if I have to---and then she said: "Emily, you know that you don't need to pay for all of this yourself, I won't let you! This is why we have MUSIC BOOSTERS!" If it wasn't for her, I would shoot myself. Srsly.

So, looking at all the music, I was on grade 4 at this website, for I found a link on the Marshwood Marching Band page to the Jekyll and Hyde show (I guess where Mr. G picks out his music), so I decided to give it a shot and told Haruhi the link. Wow! We found all tons of cool music!! So far, our most favorites are "The Chronicals of Narnia", "West Side Story" and "Classical Rock". :) I'm so happy! My petition list is already 11 people long, and we only really need 20 people to be in it total-bare minimum. So we only need 9 more people in it! We're working on getting there, so, I'm already pumped!

I'm hosting a meeting at my house on Sunday for a marching band starter meeting. It will include myself, Haruhi, Ami, Jessica, Sara and Brady. We'll be making future plans, where we want to go with this, and other important information. Money, fund raising, Emiy NOT getting a job to buy everything herself (8D Silly Haruhi), instruments, convincing people to play, trying to find Drum Line, ect...

Wish us luck!!
-(Hopefully soon to-be) Drum Major Emily

Did I ever mention that my worst, most terrifying fear that makes me cold sweat, cry, and scream in my sleep is dinosaurs? And that I have a big dinosaur calender hanging over my head, and that for January, theres a scary herrarasaurus? I don't know why I wanted it so badly, but I did. So Kathy bought it. :>. I'm so scared of them.

...Yet, I sit here and watch "The Lost World of: Jurassic Park" (which is the 2nd one). I forgot all about the beginning, when that little girl gets eaten. I hate that part. I shouldn't be aloud to watch this movie. But the video is warn out and the audio sometimes goes a little flat from when I watched it too much as a little kid. Both "Jurassic Park" and "The Lost World of: Jurassic Park".

...Yet the stegosaurus at the part with Sara in the beginning, I love that part. Before the baby, and the part with the baby. but not when the dinos go phyco D:.

Also, now that I'm older, I'm actually able to understand everything that they're saying. The most I could understand that was 'scientific' when I was, like, 3, was that part when she goes on about they're diet about the soy.

But that part with the flat-head. :(. I mean, their vehicles are all decked out-hell, I want one-but I just don't like what they do to it :(. -such a Doctor Alan Grant moment-. And that duck fin-head one, when they snap the neck DDDD: !!! It's an ohnoes moment.

THIS IS AN ANTI-EMO, HAPPY JOURNAL. YAY.

So, I'm looking at Wiki for butterflies. I wanted to research them, ya know? I wanted to make an extremely emo quote, and then base my MySpace on it. Because I am an emo loser like that. ANYWAYS! I came across the Blue Morpho butterfly...

You know what?



They are obscenely beautiful. :) I love them. This made my night (also Amber's UNO wallet there). They glow, and I love the blue. There are some EXTREMELY pretty ones, and I like this one. I think if I could have a pet, I want a Blue Morpho butterfly. Don't care if I don't know how tot take care of it. They're really pretty. :)

This is an amazing game. Play it! I don't think this is offending a bit, it's just fun, and, well, I like to play everybody. It's just a game. Simple, and harmless. I like it mostly because it doesn't downgrade or upgrade anybody. It's pretty fun and clever, if you ask me.

Seriously. It's so effin' HOT. -dies-

I've been thinking about joining the air force, but not quiet sure. :|

I also been thinking about doing a Winter Survival Course. I would love to get away for a while and hitch it out in the polars, not tundras. I really wanna go out and be a true warrior, or be like those children from the one story, when they were crashed on a tropical island and when people found them, that they had resorted to savageism. Mmhmm. Not that it's a good thing, but...heh, I guess I would like to be sort of like them. Just be profesionally trained.

Also, 'Bitter Virgin' the manga is really distrubing.

Really. I haven't. Makes me SAAAAAD. Anyway...

I joined Marching Band. So, now I'm part of the Marching Hawks 8D! I still play my Tenor Sax...and I made some awesome band friends (And I'm talking about Colby)! Spencer(Drum Line), Nicole (Color Guard), other Color Guard members, Than (Alto Sax), Colby (Trumpet). Man, all my friends are awesome! But I still miss my Ladies and Frescas and Slam-bangs and...everybody else in Litch D:. I AM SAD WITHOUT YOU.

GF gets her cellphone next week, so now we'll be able to talk NON-STOP 8D -so happy-!! I'll call her at one in the morning--- 'Vanesaaaaaaa---I need help on some math D:! You're Uke-Chan needs yooooou!!!' and I'll get to be all whiny and cute on her >w>. This year will be very nice.


D:

-runs to play Harvest Moon

Mme. Lucille Rioux- this great women is what makes me a better writer. Period. She is my teacher, as my friend. She points out my mistakes, helps me understand the usage of language better through her teaching. She has guided me for 4 years---and thats what helped me get published in a poetry book. She has been their since my 5th grade year. I needed to consume a higher level of learning Language Arts/English, and she saw this.

She took me in under her wing, and started to teach me along with 14 other lucky students. She saw my raw talent, the future that writing was for me, and how it would help me in my life. She never guessed that I would be a lot of work.

She taught me how to see, how to learn, and most of all, how to put my writing talents into use. She taught me everything that I know. We did an exit interview at the end of my 8th Grade year. We had to write a three page paper on how we improved. I remembered that when I finished, Mme. Rioux was in tears. I was shocked. She then told my parents that it was a very rough start, but she dedicated into helping me, and that I was the most improved student.

I felt very very proud at the moment. I have always been trying my hardest to improve my writing for Mme. Rioux. I want to be able to write a best-selling novel and then turn around and see Mme. Rioux say to me: "Good job, Emily. You make me proud to have been your teacher." Thats what I want to hear Mme. Rioux say to me, and I'm willing to sit down for hours at a time and just stare at my paper or computer screen and write and write and write. I love writing, and I put my heart into it. Mme. Rioux can see that, and I hope that other people will, too.

-I'll be using last names first through the whole thing-

Name: Fujiwara (Wisteria fields), Miharu (Beautiful clear sky)
Nickname, if any: None
Gender: Female

Body Type: Tallish, around 5'10". A lot of muscular build, yet still a little slender-and smaller- than a lot of others.
Age: 19
Personality: Quiet, witty, a quick thinker, leader traits, when set on something she will do whatever to accomplish it, a dangerous temper

Unique Characteristics:
Ninja techniques: (1 to 5 * -- rookies hover between 1 and 2, a particular skill probably gets 3. Naruto's chakra reserves would be a 6 or 7, but then he's abnormal like that.)
-Genjutsu: (*) Knows enough to tell shes in one, and break it. That's it.
-Ninjutsu: (*****) Has immensly strong katon jutsu. Her healing jutsus are just a little above average. Some -not very strong- doton justu.
-Taijutsu: Hand-to-hand (***), is able to defend herself, if nessicary, more fast than strong.

Background:
-Education: Ninja Acadmey, her jonin insturter was a katon specialist, so she was able to help her grow. While training for medical jutsu, her instructer was also a doton specialist, who also tought her a little.
-How did his family impact the character? : Was raised till she was about 10 by her family, then a sickness went through their -already small- clan and took her parents. Her sister raised her until she was about 12-13, then she left her taking her younger sister. So, instead of moping around, she was determined to grow strong-not for revenge, for she heard the story of the Uchiha-but to prove to herself that she couldn't be left behind. After that, her teamated where her family. She respects them that way, at least.

Likes: Training, missions that are useful to Konoha, hanging out with her teamates, pasta, cooking for her teamates
Dislikes: Not traiing, hospitals, being useless, food's with a lot of herbs in them, teas

Hobbies: Training, long runs through the forest, helping out her country, helping out where ever she can, reading, jutsu,

Friends, significant others: Her small team, which consists of herself, Kuroda Kaito, Kuroda Taiki, Akimoto Yumi and Ishimaru Akira. Kaito is most presiousc to her then anybody else, though.

Longterm goals: To be a specialized Jonin in Katon and her own special techniquie, to grow up a little bit more than marry and have three or four children. Nothing exciting, just a normal life long journey.

Character as he sees himself: Quiet, hot-headed, leader, helpful
Character as others see him: Shy, hot-headed, stubborn, helpful, a pain when she's 'too helpful'.

How does the character react to stress? : Her eyes will narrow and she'll clench her teeth tightly as she quickly thiniks of a way to resolve the stress, or work a way around, which ever the situation calls for.

What are the character's thoughts on : (how would he react to:)

-Murder? (Killing in self-defense? Killing in cold blood? Could he do it and how would it impact him?) Killing in self-defense is okay. Murder is nessicary to save others, the country, and helpless people. But if it's for the sake of just taking a life for no reason, that you just picked that person to kill instead of this one, then she'll a serious issue. But if that person is in the way to kill the person behind them, then she would take two lives. She has her morals...in a way.

-Sex? (importance of chastity, choice of partners, opinion on others who don't share his views? "not there yet"? Homosexuality, in himself, in others?)) She's not waiting till shes married, but she's waiting until shes steady long enough with a guy to feel right about them.

-Theft? (is it okay to steal from rich people? Big companies? Shops? Little grandmas? Only when he's dying of hunger? Only when he can't buy clothes? Only when the owner pissed him off? None of the above?)
-Outsiders? (people from other countries, other cities -- All X-Y-Zians are bandits? Just people? Speshul Ethnicity = 10 pts of Sexy?)

Okay...XD Because I'm a big, big, BIG fan of "Sparks the Rescue", I found some videos.

History: Sparks the Rescue is in fact a local band, and the songs you are about to hear are all done in the 5-15 dollar entrance fee Local Band Spots. AKA: The Big Easy and The Station (Station = 5 dollors = Most hectic Sparks the Rescue concerts, BE CAREFUL IF YOU GO! IT GETS HOT EASILY! (Everybody jumps around)). Which means one thing, that you can basiclly ONLY hear the Bass and Drums, when the Electric Guitar and vocals are awesooooome! <33333 *_______* -loves Sparks the Rescue-

Nurse! Nurse! (The Big Easy) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fgPrleM8N8U

Saco Boys Have No Class (The Big Easy) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vUTg7sJCliE

Getting Clean in the Dirty South (The Station(<3)) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R5vBd9zv0B4



>3 You can steal all their songs off LimeWire or something. You can get it...or I can send you a copy of the file! 8DDDD -Loves Sparks the Rescue-

God! I love my hair, but, it's just too damned thick! D: I finally figured out why it's so thick---I'm Native Canadian. Now, now, I'm not being a racist when I say that, it's the truth. Native American/Canadians have the thickest hair in the world; Canadians hair are usually thicker than American hair.

>___> I can't do ANYTHING with my hair. Yes, it does glow a pretty red-golden color in the sun, and I do mean glow, mind you, and turn into a deep, brilliant shade of golden red, yes, yes, it does happen. BUT. WHATS THE POINT IF ALL YOU CAN DO WITH IT IS PUT IT IN PONYTAIL? >__<

My hair sucks to the max, anyway. It doesn't/can't have a part. I'm serious. It falls right into my face, unlike you other lucky people who have parts or curly hair, you're hair MAGICALLY goes sideways...Mine can't. D: So I parted mine to the right. If  I wear the right clothing, I look like either an emo or one of those... preppies people that go to American Eagle and buy all that retarded clothing. (But if you DO go to American Eagle...you guys that read this, I sort people in my way, and I don't count any of you in that little list of hatred...Just as long you don't wear plaid shorts, you are okay. ._____. Keep wearing cargo pants, I love you that way.)

Stupid...stupid hair. I hate you with a passion.

D: The flash that I've been working on for a few days is almost done. I finished the coloring, and the background animation. I'm slowly working on the fore-ground animation.




Lol. 8D Reed is so awesome with his "in it's...fuckage?"

...Actually. I just finished the flash. <3 It's perfect!

I just downloaded 'The Phantom of the Opera', the Original Cast version form 1987 version. I like the 2004 version better, but this original version is just as nice. ^___^ Especially since it's live, and Sarah Brightman is singing!

Ah, so magically beautiful...But I still like the 2004 version better. >__> Because the bitrate...is higher. YAY QUALITY!

Wheeee! I love playing this game! >w< I love the Godfather, and being able to work for them is even awesomer!


2 hours later...
....Yet I just left this journal entry for about 2 hours, because I watched "My Big Fat Greek Wedding" (The ending), and "Who's Line Is It, Anyway?", then threw up in the bathroom. D:

-sick- I want to play The Godfather. DDDDD:

(BTW, I give Godfather a perfect 10, for the graphics aren't leeting awesome, yet when you open the door to go into a building, there's no pre-loader, and also, all the ways you can kill/beat up people! O__O Amazing! Also you can customize your gangsta! 8D Being able to throw people though a window and not have a loading screen is awesome, kplzthx.

...I plan on going out and buying AIR TOYS SOFT GUNS! 8DDDDD I want to go and join the last party before I move---for playing Air Soft will be so freakin' awesome!! So, I plan on buying my own MUSTKILLYOUNOW guns, so I can go and join the awesomeness fun! >3

Or I want a video camera, so I can go to their giant battles (with 2 bodyguards, at least), and record the whole fights for you. For that would be awesome! ^_____^ It would be so amusing to watch, mm! Watch us try to kill each other!!



I need to paper to go and print super special awesome sheet music to practice for the next 3 days in the band room! 8D (Just in case Cyndel is sick, or something.).





FWEE! -runs outside to play Tennis-

I am leaving to go to my man-bitch (not to be confused with man-slut)'s house for the night...agian. With Brady. 8D Truth and Dare all night long, yeeaaaaaih!

So... >3<

I'll have fun at Robbie's, playing video games, watching movies, yada yada yada, THEN ALL THREE OF US GO TO JESSICA'S HOUSE !!! >O WEEEEEEIAAAAAH!!! PARTY!! 8DDD (Originally Paintball/Airsoft, now a water fight THANKS TO NY FOR SENDING THE RAIN UP!). But it will be fun.

PS: Ivy, I hope you get better! 8D